==>

wulalalaz~
time to do something to improve my brain.
so, what should i do now??
study? LOL
yea. i'll study.
for better results, for better future =)
paiseh. im too lz to write essays in my blog.
i'll do it just the way ppl use to write science essays.
-straight to the point
-don't beat around the bush
xDD
geez. great influence o.O''

FYI, im not the kind of pro students who bia studies.
im just bored of sitting in front of my lappie,
allowing my brain rot away just like that.

girl, if you're just jealous of what we have? admit it then.
you senang, we senang, everybody senang.
isn't it great?
save your time to study instead of posting noob stuffs larh.
hypocrite.

꺼져 줄게 잘 살아 ( I'll Back Off So You Can Live )

LYRICS IN KOREAN LANGUAGE
Kkeojyeo julge jal sara
Ttokbaro yaegihae
Nalbogoseo
Nae nuneul chyeodabogo mareul hae
Heeojijan geumalhaenni
Nawa kkeutnaego sipeungeoni
(Ara) neon yeojaga saenggingeoya
(Ara) neon naege sircheung nangeoya
Daman nunmuri chamaojiman

Kkeojyeo julge jal sara
Geumalbakke nan motae
Ijeo julge jal sara
Na eobsido haengbokhae
Nega beorin sarang
Nega gajyeoga
Namgimeobsi gajyeoga
Mianhadan maldo hajima
Nae geokjeong hajima

Sorry My Sweety
Nal tteonagandaneun ne ipsuri
Oneulttara wae iri
Wonmangseureowo boineunji
Neol butjabayahaneunde
Mari naojil anha
Neon imi meoreojineunde

(Ara) nareul da jiulgeoya
(Ara) nan nega cham miulgeoya
Daman modeungeol daalmyeonseodo

Kkeojyeo julge jal sara
Geu malbakke nan motae
Ijeo julge jal sara
Na eobsido haengbokhae
Nega beorin sarang
Nega gajyeoga
Namgimeobsi gajyeoga
Mianhadan maldo hajima
Nae geokjeong hajima

(You) naega saratdeon iyu
(You) naega wonhaetdeon jeonbu
You~
Neohanaman barabwajudeon najanha
(Why) wae nal tteonaneungeoya
(Why) wae nal beorineungeoya
Eochapi ireolgeomyeonseo
Wae nal saranghangeoni

Hoksi geunal saenggak na
Uri cheoeum mannan nal
Ajikdo nan saenggangna
Nega haetdeon yaksogi
Naman akkyeojugo
Naman jikigo
Naman saranghandago
Nan mideosseo neoui geojitmal
Nan mideotdanmallya

(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
Saranghagin hangeoni
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
No No No No
Ijeo julge jal sara





ENGLISH TRANSLATION
I'll back off so you can live
Say it directly
Looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
(I know) You probably got a lady
(I know) You probably got sick of me
even though the tears are rushing to me

I'll back off so you can live
That is all i can say
I'll forget you so you can live better
I'll back of so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The Love you tossed away
You can take it
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don't even say you are sorry
Don't worry about me

Sorry My Sweety
Your lips that told me that you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you
The words don't go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

I'll back off so you can live
That is all i can say
I'll forget you so you can live better
I'll back of so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The Love you tossed away
You can take it
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don't even say you are sorry
Don't worry about me

(You) The reason i lived
(You) You were all i wanted
You~
It was me who only looked at you
(Why) Why are you leaving?
(Why) Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first
place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies
I believed it

(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
Did you really love me?
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
No No No No
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
I'll forget so you can live better

okie.
now that the exams are over.
so what? i have no idea what to do.
everyday staring at the computer and waiting for miracle to happen?
feel like watching bleach anime again. but the thing is that i forgot i watched till which episode edi? LOL
fine la. manga version leh?
dono wat the eff happened to it edi.
just 2 extra chapters from the last time i stopped reading.
like holly shit!
how am i gonna finish my 2 months of holiday like that?
God damn tell me what should i do.

thinking of trying out other online games.
dota?
MAT?
SA?
CSO?
step?
which one should i pick?
but hor. this kind of game sure got many pro playing edi lo.
later all come bully me.
haiz. forget about it. =(

thinking of going shopping.
_no transport
_no money
ughhh.

thinking of taking guitar lessons again.
_mummy dont allow.
_dun feel like trimming my fingernails.
_1 guitar sudah out of tune the other one string snapped

thinking of going vacation.
_family not free
_everybody got own plans


fine lor.
dream in front of my lappie everyday can edi o.O''

i think.
im fat @@
my da tui, my xiao tui, my shou bi, my du nan xDD
yea. du nan.
du nan = tummy
seriously, i have a tummy. a du nan o.O''
hard to imagine hor?
the last time i was 37.5kg.
and now?
41kg
im reli reli reli seriously growing.
im still growing, dude. GROWING~ =DD


kindda satisfied with my 'shape'.
hopefully can maintain larh.
and, and, owh, yea, my height.
im still not satisfied with my height larhs.
still 151cm ='(
may God bless me all the way.
i still got 1 more year chance to grow tall nia.
after 18 cant grow edi. aiks ><""
add oil-s* add oil-s*

hmm.. i managed this far of high school without having special relationships with any guys.

gratz me ppl. hahax.

its not easy going through life with ppl around you all coupled up.

as if you’re the only one odd and the lone-left-out-ranger.

walk here satu pasang, walk there satu pasang.

any corner of the school also satu pasang. lolz?

i used to get myself involved with this sort of complicated relationships.

yea. COMPLICATED.

complicated in a way that i hated my close friend and wished she would burn in hell just because of a noobass guy who i think i could really trust and count on.

please forgive me for being naive once.

miss me whenever im not around, ehy?

love me forever, ehy?

yea. forever. forever your heads, forever.

the word FOREVER doesn’t really apply in reality.

don’t you know that nothing is permanent in this so called earth, planet?

geez~

thinking back what your so called ‘promises’ makes me laugh my ass out.

LMAO! xD~

craps.

and i bet you’re using the word forever on your new so called ‘girlfriend’.

anyway, i am really grateful for what you did.

because of your so called crap promises, and for what you did,

i learned that family means a lot more than any other relationships, friendship is what that will last till the very end no matter what happens.

maybe you’ll think that what im mentioning are just a load of crap which are more crap-per than your craps.

so what? go ahead and kick my ass if you want to.

anyway, i got friends and family who are always there to save my ass.

lolx. sry.

im a little carried away.

back to the high school relationship thingy.

having a partner right by your side may help you kick the loneliness ass and look fun.

but don’t you ever think that having a partner around you means having another worry to worry about and another trouble to trouble about around you?

doubling the worries, doubling the troubles.

fun, huh?

not at all.

im glad im the odd one out.

glad that im single, and glad to have friends and family who are really worth appreciating.

with fnf-s like these, who needs a partner like you xD

I SAY YEAH~YEAH~YEAH~

I SAY I WANT TO BE FREE IN MY LIFE~ xDD

-ignore the word ‘ass’ and sry for being vulgar in my post-

you're here.
finally~
lalala~ ^_^



CIBA VISION's 3-days-trial color lens





lolx. which pair should i use first?

you're all free of charge,
so who cares?
lalala~

pardon me.
the reason why i quit watching bleach
anime is not because im bored of it.
its coz i friggin dont have the time to.
the midyear exams took away most of my time,
and to be honest, i started off preparing for my
exams weeks before the exam.
not because im kiasu or what.
its just to maintain myself in the average class next year.

kays.
back to bleach.
bleach anime has turn into a friggin bloody anime
since this dumb ass girl called Orihime Inoue tried
to be a smarty ass and surrender herself to the Espadas
and claims its for the sake of everyone which obviously's
for the sake of Ichigo nia.
pathetic.
Gin's a twerp,
hopefully Rangiku knows what she gonna do.
huu.. since Isshin, Yoruichi and Urahara are down
then the 10 division wont be in action for the next
few chapters as well.

fine. just wait.
what to do?
i wanna keep the good memories of bleach.
might as well skip all the bloody parts and straight to conclusion.

elo, brother.
just because i skipped steps,
doesn't mean i simply created my own laws.
==''
hahax. fine.
the answers are correct anyway.

huhu..
recently baru did some outdoor activities.
and guess guess..?
who's that lengzai next door who walks his doggie every evening?
erm.. actually not next door larh.
around the neighbour hood somewhere.
xDD

you're asking me why?
he, unlike some other guys who are
vertically challenged, horizontally challenged.
has the figure and stature which
all guys are dying to have. xDD

hahax. for things like these?
its UNexplainable.
awhh..
FYI.
im not in love.
im just admiring him. xDD
does that makes any difference?

my eyes power has increased.
by? 200+ for both sides.
not really sure.
all i know is that my left eye's worst
than my right eye.
and it's obvious coz i've been relying on
my right eye for the past few months.
hahax =P
i requested to daddy that i wanted to
wear back my specs.
but hor. he kindda misunderstand and tot
that i wanted a new pair of specs.
there he goes blablablaing. ==''
whatever larh. misunderstand or not.
anyway, as long as i can see clearly,
how hell shit my specs outdated is, doesn't really matters.


conclusion?
i get to chg my specs's power,
i get to exchange the low powered contacts to
a more suitable one.
lalala~

seems like im going to rely on contacts again.
and this time's till the next few years.
kindda regret for not taking care of my eyes.
now that im short sighted.
everything's gone mafan.
lolx. fine.
next time sendiri ade duit,
baru pergi buat laser.
bwahahaha~~

yay, dai jeh's coming home ^_^
which simply means i wont be listening to
any of noob jiadung's dream-talk xD
good for me.
huhu~

today's physics lesson with the new teacher from Ipoh.
lolx. what should i say?
same like the previous teacher, En.Khalid,
she's an invigilator.
lesser crap and obviously more professional.
she's next to OK.
and i gave her a 8 out of 10 ratings. xD
but.. too bad.
she can't be there for us every week and therefore?
we'll be having another teacher for replacement
=(
there goes another DAI-LAP-LOUz.

why so slow?
another 55 days+
i want my ordered stocks.
God damn faster larhx.
T_T

AI JO?
YOU JO?
nth seems to work out in the end.

owh, puhhleasse~
learn to shut your friggin ass hole.
don't'cha know that you're a friggin pain in the
'YOU-KNOW-WHAT', ass??

truth be told you're cute,
and truth be told you're retarded.

Toushiro Hitsugaya's ain't dying

sweet~??


NEAH~~Z


thanks to the friggin person who told me Toushiro is dying,
i finish reading up to the latest Bleach manga chapter 392.
duh.. just because he accidentally stabbed Momo,
and got sliced by Aizen, doesn't means he's gonna
die or fall apart.
it ain't that easy, ok?
who do you think he is?
he's a captain from the 10th devision, captain Toushiro Hitsugaya.

c'mon la. if he really dies,
how and whatever will happen to all of his fans?
he's got more votes than the main character Ichigo Kurosaki, dude.

i hate visibility tinted contact lenses.
friggin hate them. ><''
their so friggin lembek.
blow by the wind a bit, come in contact
with my eye lashes then bend edi.
plus, cant differentiate which is front
and which is back.
( means which part should and which part shan't come in contact with the iris )
erm.. actually. there's a way to differentiate la.
just that i don't know nia.
so.. the main problem lies on me.
i can't tell which is front and which is the opposite.
daijeh taught me before during the first time i wear lenses.
but back then, i was either too excited to wear lenses,
or too impatient to stuck them on my iris that i
didn't sink every thingy she taught me about differentiating
them into my brain.
lolx. i learn my lesson??


my ANGEL BLUE contacts.
finally. they arrived. =)

this pic seems so blurry.
i wonder why.. @@~

contacts~
my eyes are fake xD~

lalala~ its probably arriving this coming wednesday.
which is another three more days from today.
huhuz~ i can't wait.

SYOK SENDIRI

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it's the same old problem again.
tot that if i stick to the same old lifestyle would be okay.
but i was obviously wrong.
yea. i hated myself for letting the same mistake repeat.
you ppl are meanies, snob and BAKA-AHOUS
i hate you ppl.
friggin hate.
all you know is just to stab other weaklings
on their fragile heart.
though they aren't obvious.
hate you ppl as much as i hate myself.
and all i could do was self-releasing-tension by....
though i know it's useless.but what could i do?
i don't wanna go to school with swollen eyes everyday.
duh. now that i know,
a stabbed heart will really leave a permanent scar.
may i rot away without anybody's notice. ='(

first three days of school life

4TH OF JANUARY
first day of school's nothing special.
assembly.. arrangements.. bla bla blas.
just stay at the school hall for the whole day.

back at home.
cracko's cage is wet ><''
duh.. why are you so naughty on the
first day of my school??
give me job to do nia.


5TH OF JANUARY
finally, i've got my own class.
4SB. how unexpected. GEEEZ~
nvm la. anyway 4SC is filled with pro-s.
i didn't felt like entering from the very beginning either.
plus, most of my close friends are in the same class with me.
though, i kindda hate school life now.
not just a new environment.
even the feelings are.
and i friggin hate it.

cracko's gone really cranky these few days.
she kept bitting her water bottle and make the whole cage wet.
bad hammie ><
give me job to do nia.
now that you've wreck your bottle,
i have to cut+feed you fresh apples everyday.
duh.. how could you??


6TH OF JANUARY
librarian's meeting.
pick out duty time.
since my 1st, 2nd and 3rd choice's impossible.
then random lo.
life is so unfair.
why do they have to force weaklings to do it the hard way?

part of self-release-tension.

i love you,Toushiro Hitsugaya =)

LOL LOL LOL.
the hate-ness cant be express in words.
I HATE THIS SCHOOL.
I HATE THIS CLASS.
I HATE THIS NEW ENVIRONMENT.
I HATE THIS NEW FEELING.
I HATE EVERYTHING.
bla bla bla.
i wonder how long can i hang on.

* will be expressing more by the end of the week *